Closing one chapter of my life and beginning a new one!!

Life is a word to me that has so many different meanings. I know the dictionary only has one but my meaning of life is not the same as what you think life means. Each one of us start at a young age planning out our futures we want to be doctors, actors, lawyers, or astronauts. We also dream about the day our prince charming comes along sweeps us up and throw us on the back of his white horse and we ride off into the sunset. ( I like Disney movies can you tell) We dream about having the big house with the wrap around porch and green shutters with kids and babies and animals and ok Ill shut up now cause you get the picture RIGHT?!?!

Life never works out the way we want it to or as we dream it will be. As we grow up our maturity level changes and we decide we dont want to be a lawyer or a doctor but instead we want to be a teacher or a singer. We wind up getting our heart broke a bazillion times and our fairytale slowly starts fading. Our painting we drew in our mind on life is a big wreck and nothing seems clear to us. Peer pressure starts attacking us and we know we dont need to do this or this but we do it anyway. We wake up the next morning and blame everybody including the family dog but never own up to that is was your fault.

Life is what you make it. It isnt going to be perfect and no we will never have it right but thats what is so beautiful about life. I was sitting in my floor last night packing my things into boxes and I busted into tears. Ok when I say tears I mean like dramatic should def win an oscar tears. I wish I could say that all of the tears were from a happy place but not all of them were. I was just overwhelmed with emotions I was happy for what I had overcome but also I started thinking about where I had come from.

Back about 3 years ok I lived in a nice home was driving a brand new sports car and a big diamond on my left hand. I was fairytale living it sounds like but I was miserable. Long story short I got a divorce packed my clothes and hit the road. I got 1000 out of the divorce and bought me a grand pri 1999 model car. Big change from the sports car for sure. I got a rent house and I started trying to rebuild my life. During this time I went down a dark dark road. I started smoking cigarettes like a pack a day, drinking every night, and dating any loser that would give me attention. I was a train wreck. I had no lifestyle what so ever it is embarrassing to think about. I have tears streaming down my face while typing. I had tons of friends during this time though everyone was always calling me saying come on Nicole lets go shopping or lets go do this.

My life changed again on June 14, 2010. God sent me my angel to save me from the road I was on. This angel is Jeremy who I also get to call my boyfriend. He found my picture on myspace. He says something about my face made him want to know me. I accepted his freind request and we started messaging each other back and forth and then we went on a date and well you know. I havent been in a bar since June 12,2010. I have quit smoking and I hardly never drink. Did Jeremy make me change?? No but he made me want to. Before June 14,2010 I can not tell you the last time I prayed to God. Now I pray to him every night before I close my eyes even if its just to tell God thank you. I dont have all my friends I did before but I got all I need now I have my real friends who when I need them they come running, when I need to cry they cry with me, when I need to laugh they do something totally retarded, and when I need to scream they plug their ears.

My life has been a rollercoaster and why God loves me so much literally takes my breath away cause wow I have been a tough one to handle and I def know I try his patience. I dont know why God sent Jeremy to me but I am so glad he did. My painting on life is starting to become clear again and it sure is beautiful. I have so much to be thankful for and I so often take it for granted. Jeremy has helped me grow into this amazing person. I have learned so much and I have tried so many new things. Im finally saying goodbye to my past and saying hello to my future and yes alot of tears are being shed. Do not go to the dollar general here needing Kleenex cause this girl bought them out.

Just remember life to you might me hard, life to you might be great,  but in reality life is what you want it to be :)

I'm BACK!!!!

Hello my lovies!!! I am back and rested :) I have to say last week was the best Thanksgiving that I can remember. YESSSSS!!!! Ok where do I even begin cause goodness I have so much to tell yall and my mind is going crazy on where to begin ????

Well for starters I know most of yall HATED coming back to work today but this girl was so excited to start this week off. WHY?!?! well cause this is my last week living in Carthage that is right this weekend is the weekend that I move in with Jeremy. Up unitl this week I have been an emotional wreck I am not going to lie. I have been scared, nervous, happy, sad, oh goodness I have been ever emotion possible. I have prayed to God am I making a mistake?? I watch Kim & Kourtney take New York last night and it made me start thinking about how Kim and Kris had just gotten married and living together and they had alot of struggles cause they both were so different. Also in this day and time lets face it it is so easy to get a divorce. I dont want that AGAIN!!! I refuse to go down that road again. Therefore I know I am doing the right thing and for those of you that I offend by living with Jeremy before marriage I am sorry but I have to do what is right for me.

Ok so moving on, me and Jeremy exchanged christmas presents this weekend also hahahaha. I know your thinking what the hay Christmas is still a month away. Trust me we know this let me explain. I just bought a newer car, we just got a house which means alot of new bills for us. So we went ahead and got two big expensive gifts to ech other out of the way therefore we will have money to buy for everyone else and be able to enjoy christmas instead of being stressed out about money. Since we just got the new house we are slowly getting everything like we want it so I bought Jeremy a new grill and he bought me a new swing for the back porch.

Jeremy's new grill which we put together :)



My new swing up and ready to make memories in :)



I am so excited about these two gifts. Last night Jeremy grilled us chicken and I sat in the swing while he grilled. Yes we are like an old married couple but we love it.

Last Tuesday night I went painting with Jeremy's mom, his granny, and his sister at Easley Amused. We painting a Christmas ornament. Also the last week I went painting with some friends and we did a Christmas poinsetta which I didnt share a picture of. I have both of this diplayed in the house as part of our Christmas decorations.

My Christmas Poinsetta which to me looks more like Patrick from Spongebob lol







My Christams ornament

Thursday was a lazy day for us. Jeremy layed on the couch and watch football most of the day and Lizzie and I layed in the bed and watched the parade and slept alot. Lizzie really enjoyed her Thanksgiving!!!

Thursday night we went to my moms and stepdads for thanksgiving which was alot of fun. Friday I got up early and went shopping with Jeremy's mom and sister which we had a blast. We just went and got decorations really. After shopping Jeremy's sister came over and helped me start decorating my tree which still isnt finished yet got to get more stuff but here is the halfway mark hehehehe

Friday night Jeremy and I went to his parents for Thanksgiving and goodness we ate way to much and his parents surprised us with an early Christmas present :) his dad built it and his mom painted it.

Saturday was the day I had been waiting on all year my first time going to the EGGBOWL. Rain was in the forecast but I didnt care I just did my hair curly put my rainboots on ( well I had to borrow them from Jeremy's sister) and it was off to Starkville. I had planned to meet up with Callie but the rain didnt allow me to :( but I did get to wave at her big. She is even more prettier in person just hate I didnt get to talk to her but after a few texting conversations I feel like I know her. So here is a few pictures from Saturday I had so much fun but was so glad to get home and get a hot shower and get in my bed.

Well I dont think I left anything out but I am sure if you read all of this you are bored out of your mind. I am off to finish this Monday morning off so I can have lunch with my favorite girl Lindsey. Then tonight I must start packing so I want be so overwhelmed by this weekend. Hope yall are off to a great start. Even though Thanksgiving has come and gone dont be so quick to forget what all you have to be thankful for.

Overwhelmed!!!!

Yes the title says it all I dont do good with having SO much going on cause I get to sweating and stressed and my blood pressure goes up. As I know I have talked about many times I am fixing to move in with my boyfriend. I know alot of people think this is awful and I use to be that person Who wanted to do it the right way but after my first divorce I feel led to do it this way.

Anywho. . . . I have so much I want to do, that I need to do, and EEK!!!! I am running out of time I feel like. I dont have PATIENCE like zero!!! When I get my mind set on doing something I will do it with NO help cause who needs help???

I am in the process of trying to decorate a house which means in the process of slowly buying stuff. Also this is Thanksgiving week and trying to figure out stuff I can fix ( well this is whenever the family decides when we are eating) and also trying to make out my christmas list, plus ARGH I have to decorate the house for Christmas and I am moving in the house next weekend. Let me say I havent even started packing.

Ok peeps quit laughing I am sure to yall this is a piece of cake but I am a basket case stress out need MEDICATION stat. We also have the EGG Bowl Saturday which means I have to find Lizzie a babysitter and figure out what I am cooking for that day. I feel so overwhlemed here lately my mind never shuts off which means I am not sleeping good.

I am so ready for Christmas cause by then I feel like I will be settled in the house with Jeremy and Lizzie and calm and cool again. So today my day will be spent on Pinterest finding ideas for everything I need. So I will prob be MIA for the next couple of days. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving with your families. I will talk to yall soon

Confessions Unwrapped

Hello my blog loves!! Today I had a post written to link up with Callie for Thankful Thursday but my mind is running so plans have changed.( hope yall dont mind)

If you have read my blog post I dont have much of a family life and well friends have come and gone in my life alot to. I am not a writer in fact when it came to writing papers in school this GIRL!!!! didnt do very good it was always a hot mess with alot of RED marks on my pages.

In the last few months the blog world has helped me more than you ladies know I have found it so encouraging to sit down and read about each one of you. To read about your adventures, your styles, your love life, your screw ups, and just about you. Although I have never meet any of you and might never have the opportunity I just want to say thank you for clicking follow thank you for commenting, thank you for emailing, and thank you for taking the time to get to know me.

I started back in February of this year reading the blog Keeping up with Katie. I saw it on yahoo page about the top inspiring weightloss stories. I had never heard of a blog until that day and it just intrigued me so much. Well after a few days I came across Fitting Back In and it was the same thing. Some days I would cry when I would read this two blogs cause I was like yes Nicole your not crazy!!!!! I have had alot of changes in my life cause I want to be different than what my parents have been. I want to be that person that when you meet me your like wow this girl is genuine.

I started thinking I wanted to start a blog but this voice inside of my head said your dummy you will never be able to do that nobody is going to want to read about your crazy messed up life. Yes I am my own enemy, and where this battle with myself came from I am not sure. I look in the memory and see failure.

Jacob (my best friend/ room-mate) and Jeremy are always telling me I am the GREATEREST!!!!! It is hard sometimes to see myself as even close to that cause I want allow myself. I love making people happy if jeremy or jacob say i wish I had some homemade chili. I am the girl that goes above and beyond to do it.

The last few months of blogging have been hard cause I was scared of what people would think or what if I had no one read it. I look over and it says I have 7 followers. It makes me so greatful cause it makes me think somebody finds something I say interesting. I am so thankful for the blog world cause if I only get to vent to 7 people that is 7 more people that I had to vent to. So thank you for letting me vent to you about my crazy think called life. Thank you for helping me through this crazy time. Thanks you for becoming my blog family. I honestly wake up easier in the morning knowing that yall's blogs are wating on me to read. You all are my lil blessing that God as sent into my lifes and are all helping me reach my goals and dreams. A few months ago I was confused and scared and now I am truely thankful for my life and for the friendships I am starting.

I didnt want to leave without sharing my painting from the other night

Just Call me Picasso!!!!!

Hello my favorite people!!! First off I want to thank the 2 lovely ladies you emailed me last last thank you for your sweet comments it def made my Monday better:)

Yes my Monday was a whack job (yes I just typed that and I have no clue what that means but whateva) it was like the morning was ok but then after lunch something happened. Well when 5 came around I looked at my desk and thought OMG a tornado (HUGE) has done blown my desk up. I have no memory of how my desk so cluttered but I am still trying to straighten it out. EEK!!!!

Last night I went home and immediately got in my pjs yes which means at 5:25 I was ready for bed make off and all. Anyway got to have my monthly hourly chat with my friend Michael I dont know why we only talk once a month but that is how we roll. My roomate  cooked lasagna which isnt good formy healthy diet but oh well I devoured it and enjoyed it while doing it. I got settled in my spot and ready for some my tv shows last night I watched Dancing with the stars, Hart of Dixie, and 20/20 special about Gabby Gifford.

Ok I dont know if yall have kept up with or even heard about Gabby Gifford. If you havent omg search her on google NOW!!!!! I cried like a baby last night (what is new) it was the most heart tugging special. It made me feel bad cause yes I have struggles in life but compared to her it is so small.





This is Gabby and her hubby Mark Kelly on last nights broadcast

So I am sure you are wondering what my title has to do with what I did last night OOPS sorry this lil girl got carried away. Well tonight I am giong after work to meet 2 friends of mine Alison and Kim to Easley Amused to do a painting. I do a post awhile back about that me and Jeremy's sister had done an owl. Then me, my mom, and my sister went the end of September and painting a scarecrow.



My sister Amands, me and my mom with our scarecrows:)



I am so excited about having girl time tonight cause I dont have alot of girls that I call my friend and most of the time it scares me to start a friendship with a girl. And if you dont know why I am like this well then move to my neck of the woods and you will find out fast.

I am also going to make me my first ELF purchase cause I have to go 45 minutes out of town to be able to. Do any of yall use it?? If so any recommendations???



Photo recap!!!

Ok girlies I am new to the blog world and it has made me feel STUPID!!!!! I dont know what I am doing I couldnt get photos to upload from my iphone. I emailed them to my computer and now well I cant get them to turn right but one step at a time. I swear I am not dumb just slow aparently. Anywho reguardless I wanted to show yall some pictures from this weekend. I think its time to cut my hair off cause I feel like it looks ridic long. What do you think?? I also think that now that I have lost some weight that my nose looks ridic like a witch nose!!! I know girls are never satisfied with their looks are we??? anywho lets get this party started

This was Lizzie Thursday I was packing for the weekend. Yes I am living out of a suitcase but I go in the bathroom and come back and she was on top of my suitcase with her toys hahaha I thought is was hilar it was like momma dont forget me. Yes that green monkey is bigger than her but that was her first toy ever and she LOVES it and sleeps with it every night. No she is most def not spoiled. She is TERRIBLE but I loves her bunches.

I took this Saturday night I thought the sunset was beautiful:)

This was taken saturday of me and Jeremy. i love this boy!!!

I took this of me this morning sorry I have no makeup. YIKES but I was excited cause I got the messy side bun down and I think I did a good job for my first time:)



Weekend Recap!!

Hello lovies!! I hope everyone has had a great weekend and that Monday is starting off well. My weekend wasnt the best I saw alot this weekend that left me sad, angry, and just made me realize how cruel our world is.

Friday night was spent chilling at the house. The boyfriend fixed us tacos for supper and we settled in the bed early and watched The Bad Teacher with Cameron Diaz

This movie was ok but it wasnt really my favorite I felt like I knew what was going to happen. I did laugh a bunch though.

Saturday morning started off early. I got up a lil before 8 ate some breakfast, took a shower and got ready, and had to get Lizzie packed and ready. I took Lizzie to spend the day and night with my mom and stepdad. We left the house around 10:30 going to Starkville. Our usually tailgate crew wasnt able to come so we went to Mugshots and had to wait for 45 minutes to get seated then another 45 minutes to get our food. Around 2 we went to campus and went to see some other friends. The day was going ok until. . . . . Me and Jeremy decided we wanted to go to the dawg walk. Well when we were walking that way we ran into his ex girlfriend. Ugh I got irritated :( WhyI am sure you are asking well let me give you a background on her.

Her name is Jerrica and her and Jeremy dated for about 3 months until she broke his heart. She was all about him then one day was not about him anymore and just ended it. She strung him along for a few months until he got fed up and ended communications with him. Well about 6 months after he ended communications with her I come along and we start dating. Guess who starts texting him again?? Bingo her!!! I am not a jealous girlfriend most of the time but she def made me go crazy. DO NOT text my boyfriend pictures of yall two kissing and do not be texting him about how you had dreams about him. OH it gets better Jeremy went off on her saying leave me alone why are you trying to cause problems??? Her reply was I just need a friend I am not trying to cause problems. OMG this girl things I was born yesterday. Sweetie I have done been married and had a divorce so I know more than you think. So yes I dont have much for her. Cause dont hurt my boyfriends feeling but then when you realize he has moved on want him again.

Ok so my blood was pumping we get to the dawg walk stand there for 45 minutes waiting on it then Alabama fans get in the way to where police had to re-route the dawg walk therefore all the people who had waiting for 45 minutes to get a good view couldnt see NOTHING!!!! I was like NOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Anyway we go to the game and some guys sitting by us were OBNOXIOUS!!! They are season ticket people so we have sat by them all year but Saturday they decided to drank a 5 of whiskey before the game. They were cussing none stop like yelling. We have a christian family that sit in front of us that have 2 small children. It just made me mad cause the kids acting scared and just kept looking at the guys. I was so embarrassed to say that this people were State fans. I felt bad cause there were an older Alaama couple that sat in front of them. I was so mad!!!!!! Then after the game we are walking to our car and this guy who is younger than me but was in college at Alabama was yelling out State fans Im so sorry that we hurt your feelings by whooping your A$$. Yall F**KING SUCK!!!! I am not writing down everything he was saying but guess what a bunch of other kids were around during this time and this girl had had ENOUGH!!! I looked at the guy and I said can you please stop cussing around these kids. He looked at me like I was crazy. He said what d*mn kids. I said well you need to look around he said umm what do they have virgin ears. DO WHAT????

WHAT is wrong with our world today?? I cuss sometimes yes I dont use the words he used but I do let some words slipp but I do it in private with my peeps not for the whole world to hear. Why do people thing it is ok to just hell out whatever you want to?? It just saddens me so much that people not only dont respect others but they dont respect themselves. I just think it is so sad cause children look up to people like that stupid acting guy cause kids cant wait to there his age. I feel so sorry for his parents cause i hope his parents didnt teach him those manners.

I am sorry maybe you disagree with me but its guys like him that make me so scared to have kids one day cause I do not want my kids acting like that. I honestly prayed the whole way home cause I was having bad thoughts about what I would like to do to that boy.

I was hoping to meet up Callie from The Good Life but didnt get up there:( Dear Callie I saw you seating 3 rows back from me and was gonna come up during halftime but the 2 bottles of water I drank before the game kicked in and I had to stand in line forever. After the game you had already left. The Egg Bowl I promise I will come say hey:)

Well its off to do some work on this gloomy Monday morning. I hope you all have a great day:))

Funday Friday!!!

Ok peeps we need to talk. I think the world is fixing to come to and end. No not really calm down Im not a weirdo but something has defnitely happened to me. What the heck are you talking about is prob what your asking?? Well let me explain good lord give a girl time hahahaha

I am the girl that drools at clothes. I love style but I stink I repeat I stink I being in style. Do you get what I am saying. I am the one the in style people HATE hahaha I just assume I look ridiculous in everything. I love how cut people fix there hair and makeup but me puulease I dry my hair or either dont dry it and makeup ummm what the hey is that?? I know Security this girl needs to be under arrest for being crazy

Ok so this week I have dressed up, actually fixed my hair ( I attempted a poof), and I have wore makeup. Today I have on a scarf WHHHHHHHAAAAATTTTTTTT???? I think I want to go buy another scarf to GGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSPPPPPPPP!!!!! Yall think I am joking but I think something is wrong. I was watching a video on how to tie a scarf so I could wear it today.

Ok enough about all of that I have started back on my healthy diet really hard this week and woza I have had a killer headache all week yes like everyday cause I threw the Mt Dew in the garbage. Said bye bye and well Im having with drawals but I want to change my bad habits. I have lost 3 lbs this week also look out.

I have a confession to make also I am so jamming out to christmas music today. I wonder why they dont make Thanksgiving cds??? I mean you have Easter, Halloween but where the heck is Thanksgiving?? So I am wanting to get in the holiday spirits so Jessica Simpson to the rescue. I love her voice so much I still wish her and Nick would get back together though.

Also I have another confession to make Carrie Underwoods leg make me drool!!! No I am not a lesbo but good lord I got just as excited about her legs as I did about Luke Bryans tight pants the other night on the CMA awards. I mean come on that girl is HOTTT!!!!

I hope everyone has a great weekend. I am heading to Kosciusko tonight to have some R&R with the boyfriend and then its up bright and early in the morning. I have to take Lizzie Mae to my mom and step dad she is going to stay with them tomorrow and tomorrow night. Jeremy and I are headed to Starkvegas tomorrow to watch them Dawgs take on Bama!!!! A day of beer good food and good friends. I am excited cause I am going to hopefully get to meet Mrs Callie from The good Life!!!!

Hope everyone has a fun Friday!! If you see a veteran today stop and thank me for all they do!!! I just think Veterans Day should be a national holiday cause I dont like having to work when alot of people get the day off.

Thankful Thursday!!!

After this week I have had I couldnt just pass up the opportunity to link up with Callie for Thankful Thursday. Now with that said I am not sure how good I will be at this cause this is me we are talking about and I have never done a link up but Mrs Callie is so right everyone forgets Thanksgiving alot of the times I am guilty of that myself. As soon as November 1 rolls around I go into panic mode, OMG I have got to get started Christmas shopping. So Callie thanks for preaching to me. I am going to start back on November 1 and go through well this morning November 10.

November 1- I am thankful for my parents! They made my childhood very difficult for me and still to this day I have alot of insecurities because of them BUT I am who I am today because of who they are.

November2- I am thankful for my sister! She makes me mad more times than I can count and alot of times I want to choke her but I couldnt imagine like without having my big sister to fight with:)

November3- I am thankful for my grandpaw! He has instilled so much in me especially my love for music. His heart is so big and so giving I just hope one day my heart is half of his.

November4- I am thankful for my best friend Jacob! I have put him through alot but he is alawys there loving me when I need a friend to confide in, a friend to scream at, and a friend to cry to. We have been friends for 9 years and I know we will be friends forever:)

November 5- I am thankful for my nephew! Conner has brought so much joy, love, and laughter into my life. I never knew what love was til I held him in my arms for the first time.

November 6-  I am thankful for my precious boyfriend Jeremy!! i had given up on my happy ending and finding love then you came along and swept me off my feet. I have never smiled so much and laughed so much until you came along. You saved me from a bad place.

November 7-  I am thankful for my job. DOnt get me wrong most days I hate my job but I know there is alot of people today that dont have a job to come to ever day.

November 8-  I am thankful for my health!! Cancer is becoming a much more common word in our everyday vocabulary and in every age group. Its not just cancer alot of different diseases are spreading our world today.

November 9- I am thankful for my friend Lindsay! I havent had a good girlfriend in forever until you came along. I love how honest and real you are:)

November 10-  Last on mylist today but certainly not least I am thankful for God!!! He def has his hands full with me but he never FAILS!!! I know I stray from him alot  but he is always waiting for when I come crawling back.

Callie thank you for what you are doing this month you defnitely slapped me in the face this morning.( No people not literally) I dont know you and for your benefit its prob good that you dont me;) but thanks for remindning all of us to slow down and take the time to be thankful for what we do have. Oh and if I didnt do the link up right girl email me and tell me the right way cause Im still learning :))

Random Day!!!

Ok so this girl learned something new I know SHOCKER!!!! I swear somedays I feel like my parents hate me cause why didnt they teach me more good gosh. Anywho last week my sinuses went hair wire and I had to go get a shot in my buttox which yes I am 25 and still tear up when I get a shot. Yes I am a big baby but you would be to if you had my sensitive tush.

Ok enough about my tush. Well since last Friday miss Lizzie Mae hasnt been feeling well and has even thrown up a few times which makes me throw up to cause YUCK!!!! So it is just a hot mess when she gets sick. Well I decided to call her vet this morning and see if I needed to bring her in. I tell him what she has been doing and he proceeds to tell me that I gave Lizzie my sinus infection. WHAT??? Is this normal??? My dog caught my infection??? I did not know that animals could catch stuff from humans. So if I have the flu can my baby catch it. I honestly think I am getting dumber by the day cause I have had animals all my life and I did not know this. I think I am calling and checking in to reserving me a room at the nursing home cause at this rate whew I will be there by the time I am 30.

Also today is voting day. THANK GOD it is almost over cause I am so tired tired of hearing about it all. Here in MS we have the amendment 26 which is about prolife. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I am tired of hearing everybody bicker and fuss about it. I mean it has been ridic. I have my beliefs and usually when I am asked my opinion I will give it to you but about 26 I have just kept my mouth shut. God knows my my heart and knows how I feel and thats all that matters.

I finally quit complaining about how I had no winter clothes and went shopping during lunch today YES!! I got some cute stuff to. I got 3 new dresses to where with my tights plus I got a pair of grey tights. What you want to see pictures of what I got well I wish I could show you to but this dumb girl cant figure out to upload pictures. I am gonna try to find pictures of it all online. I got alot of cute stuff and for a really good price to. I am def washing all my stuff tonight so I can start wearing them. I also want to get me some scarfs to start wearing cause they are super cute. I really need a good girl friend to help me with my fashion sense cause well I stink at it.

Just for the people who care and even for the ones that dont really I just wanted you to know than in 3 weeks and 4 days I will be making the big move to Kosciusko in with the boyfriend:)) I am so excited but nervous. Well Im off to do some work I am so ready for 5 to get here so I can go home and take a nap.

My embarrasing moment that I shouldnt post!!!!!

I know after this post the five followers that I do have will definitely hit the unfollow button but this is my blog and I dont ever want to forget this STUPID moment of mine. I have a tendency to open my mouth and embarrass myself but acourse everyone that is around gets a very good laugh out of my stupidity. Anywho saturday me, the boyfriend, and some of our friends were watching the big game. I am sorry to the people who are LSU fans but I am not so much. I have my many reasons though so dont cuss my name yet. I do know they are a good team but they still arent my favorite.

Anyway sorry. . . .  My friends said I hate how Lsu says GEAUX tigers I mean come on G-O is a 2 letter word. Ok insert me being all confused faced. I said what are you talking about??? My friends shows me a facebook status that said GEAUX TIGERS!!!!! I said you pronounce that GO?????? My friend said how did you think you pronounced it??? I said good scotts I thought you pronounced it GEAUX ( G-ox). I said OMG I thought that was the name of the mascot the geaux tiger.

Yes after this conversation I didnt speak for the rest of the night cause I was like how did everybody else know this and I amso dumb and didnt. I am totally laughing about this now lol cause I am not so dumb for thinking this well in my book anyway. Why would people want to change the way of spelling such a simple word??? I know the answer though. They knew I would be the last person in this area to figure this out.

Hope everyone is having a blessed Monday!!!!

Decorating, Football, Friends, & a Good Weekend:)

Good Morning Fellow Bloggers:)
  
        I promised yall that I would do better with my blog. So here is a brand new week of happy thoughts. I have to say I had a great weekend. I am also loving the time change cause when my alarm went off this morning I didnt mind getting up cause the sun was shining YESSSSSS!!!!!!

Anyway recap of Friday was work and work then got off went home got packed up and Jeremy got to Carthage around 5:30. We went and grabbed a subway and then headed to Leake Academy to watch them in the first round of the playoffs. Acourse Leake didnt pull off the win but it was a very exciting game but also a very cold night. After the game we headed to Kosciusko for the weekend.

Saturday morning started out early cause we wanted to get alot done with the house. My mom and step dad came down to help and see the house for the first time. We finally have pictures hanging on the wall WOOHOO!!! It is finally starting to look like home. After my mom and step dad left, it was off to walmart for food and home to cook. We decided to not go to States homecoming but to have a few friends over to watch the LSU vs Alabama game. I think our first get to together was a big success seemed like everyone loved the house and we had way to much food. I fixed Rotel dip, peanut butter cup cookies, and pepporoni pizza cups.

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We had a great night but when everyone left it was crash time even poor Lizzie was exhausted and I didnt think she ever got tired.

Sunday morning acourse started early due to the time change which was fine with me. I cooked Jeremy homemade breakfast burritos I adapted this recipe from Fitting Back in. We love this burritos. After breakfast it was showers and ready to start the day. We had to go to walmart and get some utinsels. I needed a rake for the yard. There is 2 big pine trees in the front yard which means a HOT mess our front yard is nothing but pine needles everywhere. I got the front yard raked up then Jeremy started raking all the leaves up in the back yard while I washed our sheets and finished cleaning up from the night before. By the time Jeremy got through with the back yard it was dark so we came in and got showered and ready for a movie night. We decided to watch the new Fast Five cause we wanted to hear how our new surround sound sounded. We loved it:)

I am back in Carthage for two days and will go back to Kosciusko Wednesday after work to watch the ACM awards with Jeremy :) December 3 cant get here fast enough I am loving our lil home together. My mom gave me my great grandparents first bed room suite. I am hoping to redo it and maybe paint but I am so scared to do it cause I have never done anything like that. Have any of you ever redone furniture before?? Some of the wood is peeling off of it but I just cant throw it away cause I am a sucker for antique furniture. Is that weird?? I am a cheap person if you want to give me something trust me I can find some where to use it. I am not cheap when it comes to other people though I will drop moneyin a heart beat to make someone else happy.

What did everybody else do this weekend? I have got to order a card reader for my computer but as soon as I do I will upload pictures. I have tried to upload some from my iphone but I couldnt figure that out. I know I am not good with this technology sorry. 

Random stuff!!!

I was reading my blog this monring. Hey dont judge me Im not a total freak hahahahaha. Anyway I was reading my blog and I was like OMG no wonder I only have 5 followers I come across has a miserable person. All my blogs are like dark depression good night yall prob think that I never have fun and I am a b**** which I can be that word especially when mother natures decides to show up. Ok sorry I am rambling.

I wanted to give you a good blog and tell you about myself and what I love to do. The good stuff though cause I know I use this blog to sort through my life changes which is the bad stuff but I have got to do better letting you in on the good stuff. Ok then lets go.

Well my name is Nicole which duh I am sure you know that but I am 25 years old ugh I know that means I'm halfway to 50. Most days I think my body is already falling apart hahahaha If I had to describe my personality I would def say tender hearted. Why?? Well cause everybody that knows me tells me I worry and care to much for others. They are right I hate to make anybody mad well except my boyfriend I do that on purpose alot of times hehehehe. I am obsessed with music. Yes I have an addiction. I buy a new cd like every other day NAWP!!!! its not that bad. Alot of people like clothes shopping which I do to but Im more obsessed with music. My boyfriend gets annoyed at how music I know.

I love meeting new people and never meet a stranger at all. If you will talk to me trust me I will talk to you til you tell me to shutup. I have a tendency to say stupid stuff and get laughed at alot. I love it though weird right?? I just love to see people smiling and laughing so hey if they find me something to laugh at then bring it on cause laughter makes the world a better place. I think my dog is human. Yes you read that correctly I think Lizzie Mae is my daughter. When she goes to stay at my moms or with Jeremy's sister I pack her an overnight bag and I cry when we drive away. I know I have a problem. hahahahaha

I am obsessed with tv especially reality tv. If it is reality then yep this girl is watching it. Mtv and I are inthe works of shooting a reality show hahahaha Snooki has nothing on me. No its bad cause I actually hate reality tv cause its so dumb but I cant quit watching it. I know Im cray cray. I love to cook like no really cook not the take it out of a box and put it in the oven cook but the get down and dirty with them ingredients cooking. I feel like I accomplish something great when I cook well until I eat way to much then I feel bloated. ummm k tmi

I love the outdoors and love fishing. Ok let me clarify what I mean by "fishing" I do not mean getting in a boat and having all this famous fishing equiment. I mean having a cane pole, a container of worms or crickets, and a cooler of beer. I love just having fun with it and drinking alot while doing it which usually ends up in me- drunk and the fish- gone. Yeah I dont ususally catch alot but I do enjoy the memories made. I live in the sticks and everybody hunts but me. Well unless you count the time I ran over the squirrel by accident. Yes dont judge me but I cried when I hit the squirrel and picked it up and could have possible had my grandpaw bury.

I am the freak that prays everytime I see a dead animal in the road and I shed a tear.You would think I wouldnt eat meat but WRONG I love me some meat which kinda makes me sound like a hypocrite right. I know I have issues and I am working on these. hahahahaha I suck at being creative that is until pinterest came along NOW im a genius. I wish I could kiss the person who came up with that idea.

I get embarrassed about everything yes my face stays red alot. If you are ever in walmart and hear a guy saying hey honey dont you need some tampons and you hear a big crash that will be me hiding. Jeremy loves to embarrass me and he will say whatever he needs to get the job done. He says he loves my face when Im embarrassed. I dont exactly know what it looks like but evidently he loves it.

Im a Elvis fanatic no serious. I went to Graceland and cried the whole time. I mean who does that?? This girl. I having concert dvd, tshirts, coffee mugs, and yes I am jamming out to his cd right now. I so wish he was alive still.

So there you go Im a freak lol I am different but God made me and I love my life I swear I do. I just have a hard time letting go of my past. If there is anything else you want to know just ask!! I am so sorry that my blog has been like a dungeion of darkness hahaha. It will be more fun filled I promise.

I am so excited cause we are having our first get together at the new house tomorrow night:) yes I have been doing the elvis leg thrust move all day cause Im so excited. I am so nervous though cause nobody has seen the house yet well none of our friends so yikes what if they hate it. Anywho

What are yall doing this weekend?? Anything fun!!!

The Month of Thanks!!!

I keep reading on twitter, facebook, and here in the blog world about how everyone is so thankful and how they are so excited for the holidays. . . .

I am trying so hard to be excited and years back I was one of you. I loved the holidays, loved this time of year, and always wanted people to know how thankful I was for my life, my health, and my family. What happened you are prob asking?? DIVORCE happened and ever sense then my family has been separated and my heart broken. In the years sense the divorce I have spent Thanksgiving ever where but with my family, yes I have seen my grandpaw on thanksgiving and even seen my sister but it was just small chit chat. Christmas is the exact same way it is so fast pace having to see my dad and his family then trying to squeeze in time to see my mom and her new family, then also having to see my sister and her family.

I know I am blessed but when the holidays come around I always get sad and depressed sorry I can't lie about it. Like now I see Jeremy's family all getting excited about the holidays and spending it together like they always do and it hurts my heart cause I want the same thing but sometimes scared I will never have it. Jeremy's family is extremely close very much unlike mine and sometimes I have a hard time dealing with the closeness cause my family has never been close.

A few months back I started getting close with his family and we all kinda had a set back and now I honestly feel like they hate me and I am scared to even try. Which is really making this holiday season so hard. I feel like I got my family who doesnt know how to be close and faithful family then now Jeremy's family who doesnt understand where I am coming from and just tolerates me. I have talked to Jeremy and he says his family loves me but they are all so close and I want that closeness. Maybe it all just takes time.

I hate that I am being a debbie downer but this is what I have been feeling the last few days. I get all emotional and jealous hearing about how excited everybody is for the upcoming holidays. I am able to ignore my family situation until the holidays. Then all the memories and the pain of the divorce comes back to haunt me. Does any of you have situaitions like this??