Monday, March 26, 2012

One Great Weekend!!!

Oh no is it seriously already
MONDAY!!!

Have I told yall lately how much I
HATE!!!!
working on Saturday mornings

Anyway I am not going to whin and complain cause I have a bunch to share!!!!

Acourse yall should know that me and the boyfriend got a house a few months ago.
Well this weekend we worked on landscaping the back yard. Now we really didnt have to do that much except plant flowers but I have to admit I was super nervous!!!! I wanted our backyard to be fun and vibrant with colors. So not much I can really say except I was so Proud of myself and I love it. Like last night after we got finished I ran inside got showered, got a glass a wine and sat outside on the porch and watched the sun set.

Anyway I took pictures of the work we did which I have a couple more ideas I want to do but that will
have to wait til next paycheck. So here we go. . . .









What do you guys think?!? I should have taken before and after pictures but I
never remember to take pictures til after Im done. This is my first time really attempting
flowers cause I have always been scared of killing them and that I would buy the wrong
type of flowers. Jeremy's mom and sister went with me and helped me so that made me
not feel so scared!!!!

Jeremy got us set up with Netflix last week so Saturday and Sunday night was spent on the couch watching
movies!! We started watching a tv show called Prison Break and wow we are hooked!!! Do yall have Netflix?!? If sodo you recommend anything good to watch?!

I know some of yall or wanting an update on the new job!!! Well I was offered the job last Wednesday!!!
YAY!!!! But just got to wait for my background check and drug test to come back stating that
I am not on drugs and that I havent killed anybody!! Hopefully I will hear back soon!! So thank yall so much for the prayers!!!

Also good news I have lost a total of . . . . . . . drum roll  pahlease!!!

5.2 lbs.

WOW!!!! 
that is all I have been saying I know to some that is not alot at all but to me it is a major accomplishment
I have honestly been working so hard at doing a bunch of cardio every day!!
I get excited everyday to go home just cause I know I am going to the track and going to push myself to go that extra lap. While I still have so much room for approvement I am just so proud of myself. I have changed my lifestyle and prob because of that added a few years to my life.

So enough about me braggin about my yard and how much weight I have lost
I am off to catch up on yall blogs and see what yall have been up to this weekend!!

Have a blessed Monday!!!


Monday, March 19, 2012

Update on my Crazy life, NEED help from you!!!!

OMG I feel like I am so far behind on this blog. So I am fixing to get caught up and
hopefully FAST!!!! Now where to begin!!!


Grandpaw!! - Thanks so much for all the prayers!! He is still at home and doing good. He now calls me everyday so we can talk to each other. The reason he calls me is because when I call him he doesnt hear the phone ring. I really enjoy our lil 5 minute phone conversation every day. I have to share what he told me last week.

Pawpaw: " Honey, How much do I owe you for getting my clothes
done."
Me: " Pawpaw, you dont owe me nothing I was happy to help."
Pawpaw: " No now how much do I owe you."
Me: " Pawpaw I dont want your money."
Pawpaw: " Girl what the hell am I going to do with you. Do you want me
to whoop your ass now or wait til Christmas."
Me: " Well Pawpaw you can wait til Christmas."
Pawpaw: " No I am going to do it now and then do it again at Christmas."

Sorry it might not be that funny to yall but it makes me laugh everytime I think about it!!!!

My Dad - Well I finally called my dad and apologized for the hurtful words I said to him. He said it was ok but he still want have much to do with me. I have seen him a few times but he is short with me so I dont know all I can do is pray about the situation.

My New Healthy Lifestyle - I am still doing very good. I still am keeping track of my calories and still staying within the number I want to. I have been still running which is starting to feel much easier. I can do 3 laps around the track which is 3 quarter of a mile. I dont run the 3 laps without stopping though but when I first started running I couldnt do one full lap. I can now at least run one lap without stopping!!! YAY!!! I also am really getting into Zumba (which I did a post about) I really love it and want to look into getting some Zumba DVD's so if you have any suggestions let me know.

New Job- The other day I mentioned a new job possibilty!!! Well i got a call last Wednesday asking to come in Thursday morning at 7 for an interview. The interview went good everyone really seemed to like me and alot of laughing went on which I guess is a good sign. I should find out this week if i got the new job. So please send prayers up.

Tax Season- Thank God!!! This is almost over:) Tax season is so stressful and so tiring. This right here is why I have been MIA so much here lately cause by the time I get home and workout I am done for the day. I am in the bed every night by 8:30 sometimes I fall asleep on the couch before then.

New house projects- This past weekend we got alot done at the house. Jeremy and I worked til 12 on Saturday. After we both got home and ate lunch we got out in the yard. We have 2 huge pine trees in our front yard which is great for shade but OMG they make such a mess in the yard and flower beds. So all day Saturday we worked and sweated alot of colories:) off working in the front yard and backyard. Sunday we put a ceiling fan in my bathroom which is oh so nice.

Jeremy- I am more in love with him today than I was yesterday. He has helped me grow into a much better person and I know he is my present and he is my future!!!

I really think this is about everything that has been going on!! I have such a boring life really but it seems
crazy to me alot of the times.

Ok so now I need your help with something!!! I know a bunch of my followers are people that workout so
I need to know what is your fav workour attire. I have been working out in t-shirts and just shorts but I sweat like a man and I just think I need something else cause all my shirts are stained so bad. TMI?!? I am sorry but yeah I sweat bad. So I need some good ideas on what to get to workout in!!!

Well that is all I got today. I keep thinking one day I will have some interesting to talk about  ahhaha a girl can dream right?!? I also have zero pictures except of Lizzie Mae cause well she is the only one that does anything ever exciting. Hope yall have a blessed week!!!!


Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Zumba Fitness for thw WII!!!!!

Hey ladies!! I am still so behind on EVERYTHING!!! but I just had to share something with yall.




So I got this for my birthday from my boyfriend. This was something I had never tried but it was something
ok well it was the only thing I wanted for my birthday. So yesterday I said I was getting back on track with my healthy life style change. This is what I call it cause I dont like the word DIET!!!

Anyway!!! the results are in and I absolutely love thsi work out. It comes with a belt that you wrap oaround your waist and you put the wii remote in the belt pocket which should be on your right hip. I chose to do a medium intensity short class. The class lastest about 30 minutes but I swear I felt like I didnt work out I mean yes I was sweaty really bad and well when you sweat all your deo off I mean you did something good. It so reminded me of nights out dancing with my friends and the moves to me were easy to pick up on. I honestly can not wait to get home and do it again tonight.

Now do I think I will get results from this?!?! HECKYES!!!!! I woke up this morning and my abs and back are so sore. I am going to say this was from the zumba. BUT after I did the zumba workout I went to the park for some joggin and walking. BUT I have never been sore before when I have went for a jog and walk except in my legs and well this isnt my legs people.

So bottom line is if you are tired or bored with your normal workout then I would def recommend Zumba Fitness. I am sure I looked like a complete idiot while doing some of the moves ok ok all of the moves but that is the great part about it NOBODY knows how retarded I looked except my dog Lizzie Mae and well she whined and looked at me like I was crazy.


Monday, March 12, 2012

Getting back on Track!!!!

Yellow people!!! Is it just me or is every thing freaking YELLOW!!!!! OMG my car is suppose to be silver but NAWP!!!! its yellow, my swing on my backporch is yellow, and my pants when I sit on the swing turn yellow. I do not like pollen at all, and frankly pollen doesnt like me either. (cough,cough) Yes sinus drainage and all!!!!


Last week I was MIA but thankfully I am getting back in my routine today. My grandfather got to finally come home Friday afternoon and so far the new medicine is working wonderfully!!! Praise the Lord!!! Thank you to everyone that has been checking on me and praying for my grandfather.

Now last week I quit counting calories cause I was in such a hurry and I had enough stress on me. I did however try to make healthy food choices. Like I tried eating subway everyday!!! I also got in zero workouts last week and I felt so bad about it but helping my grandfather was much more important. HOWEVER, I finally decided to weigh again. I hadnt weighed in the last 2 weeks that I had been counting calories and working out. Well I hadnt weighed cause I didnt have a scale But my boyfriends wonderful parents got me one for my birthday (yes that is what I asked for) and I stepped on it for the first time Thursday morning and BAM I had lost 3 lbs!!!!!!! since my last weigh in. I was so excited and hope to continue on this healthy journey which I picked up on again today.

I feel so out of the loop on the blog world I havent been able to read anybodys blogs. I sure hope everyone is doing good and please be patient with me while I catch up on this. I am still waiting to hear from my new job opprtunity. It will be much better for me. I am so hoping I can get an interview:) It will be closer to my house. Right now I drive 30 minutes to work and 30 minutes home everyday which gets very old. This new job will be only 3 minutes from my house. Also right now I have no insurance and with this new job I will have insurance. Lets see with the new job I will be making more than what I am making now. I will also have vacation days plus sick days right now all I get is vacation days. So please say a quick prayer that if it God's will to have this new job that I will get it.

Hope everyone has had a great Monday and that this new time change hasnt screwed yall up to much. Sorry this post is so short got to get a bunch done before I leave work and I have a date tonight with my sweet boyfriend. We are going to the park to run together:)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

At the end of my Rope!!!

I am so sorry for this post is not going to be a happy positive post.
But instead it is going to be sad and very hard for me to write.
I am warning you cause if you would like to hit the red x in the top right corner
NOW is def the time to do!!! I need to get this off my chest cause I feel like
I cant handle much more.

I have one grandpaw who is the most special man in my life. He is 86 years old and
such a blessing in my life. He taught me how to fish, he taught me all about chickens, he taught me
how to set a trap, and he even taught me how to drive. Anyway he got put in the hospital Thursday.
At this point I am not certain what is wrong but today we should finally be able to get answers.
My dad is my grandpaws only child and well I have never been so disappointed in my father as I
am right now. So I have never been so mad and had so much angry towards my dad before and
I said alot of mean things that I meant but oh God I shouldnt have said to him. I was raised to respect my parents
just like my dad was raised to respect his. Ok so let the story begin.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

This is the day my gramps had his neice, Patsy take him to St dominics Hospital (ER) in Jackson, MS. He was having bad stomach pains. The doctor in the ER had scheduled to do a scope on my grandpaw to decide what the problem was. Right when they were about to do the scope they had to stop because some blood work came back showing that his potassium level was three times the number it should be. Also meaning it was at stroke level. After some further tests the doctors found that his kidneys werent functioning like they shouldeither. 
The doctor decided to keep pawpaw and postpone the scope. My grandpaws neice didnt come prepared to stay so she called my dad and he said to leave my grandpaw by himself. My dad finally called me at 7 to inform me that my grandpaw was in the hospital. 

Friday, March2, 2012

I talked to grandpaw almost every 2 hours. My dad got to the hospital at 10:30 and left at 12:30. My grandpaw was alone all day and night except for those 2 hours. 

Saturday, March 3,2012

I worked til 12 then went with my mom and nephew to a play in Jackson. My dad went to the hospital and sat with my grandpaw for an  hour. I got to the hospital at 4:30 and stayed all night taking care of my precious grandpaw. My grandpaw just talked and cried to me cause he said he was so glad that I came that he hadnt liked being alone. By Saturday night Grandpaw really started hurting in his stomach aftrer asking him several questions. I came to realize that my grandpaw hadnt used the bathroom since WEdnesday night. My grandpaw has a very bad stomach and has always had to take something so he can go to the bathroom. I talked to the nurses and informed them of this situation cause acourse my dad hadnt told them this. Saturday night was a rough night for grandpaw for he was in alot of pain and couldnt get easy cause he needed to use the bathroom and well couldnt. 

Sunday, March 4, 2012

This is the day where I am prob going to cry during this whole paragraph. My grandpaw didnt want to be alone which I do not blame him. He asked my mom if she would stay with him and my mom said she would. So the plan was for Jeremy to pick me up from the hospital and I was going home. Jeremy's family was having a small cookout for my birthday. Well plans changed very quick like. As you know my parents are divorced, my mom took it upon herself to call my dad and tell him that she was going to stay with his dad since he wouldnt take care of him. Well my dad cussed my mom out and hung up then turned around called my grandpaw who lets remember is in the hopsital and cussed him out for talking to my mom and for wanting her to come stay with him. Let me explain something my grandpaw and my grandmaw are two people who I will not allow to be mistreated. So my dad informed my grandpaw that he was done with him. He wanted nothing else to do with him and that he wouldnt be back to the hospital to. Well at this moment I have just arrived home and call my grandpaw to let him know that I made it home safe. When he answers the phone he is in tears and I can barely understnad him. So once I realize what has happened I call my dad to talk to him and when he picks up the phoen my dad is laughing!!! Oh so at this moment this is what happened. My lil devil that sits on one shoulder well he dropped kicked my angel and took over my body. I went total ape shit on my dad. It was like I was jacked up on Mt dew. I said very hurtful things alot of words that I will never be able to take back. I am not proud of this at all cause I didnt present myself nor handle myself in a respectful manner. So my dad hung up on me I did what I thought was best I took a shower, packed my bags and headed back to Jackson to be with my grandpaw. Who was so happy when I walked in that door.

Monday, March 5, 2012

I left the hspital at 6:40 heading back to Carthage cause I had to work. i am not use to Lakeland traffic at all. I also am dilusional I am going on 2 nights of no sleep so I pumped myself with as much chocolate(yes I had to force it cause yuck!!), coffee, and my dew as possible. I get informed at 2 that my grandpaw can not come home and well my dad is no where to be found. I lose my composure cause I am so tired. I leave my work at 3:30 go home take a shower and start packing my bag to go stay with my grandpaw. Thankfully my grandpaws neice Patsy called me and said she was going to stay cause she was already down there with him and she knew I needed some rest YIPEE!!!! so I curled up on the couch with my lizzie mae and spent time iwth my lil family and watched the Bachelor

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

I went to work and lord I was still tired when I woke up and felt like CRAP!!!!! I decided to be prepared and packed my bags to stay with my grandpaw. I got the call from the doctor that they couldnt let grandpaw come home yet again. So I left work at 4 and headed to Jackson to stay with my grandpaw again.

Wednesday, March 7,2012

Its my Birthday!!!! Grandpaw didnt have a good night. I got up and went to my friends house and took a shower to try to wake me up and pumped as much caffeine in me again. Headed to work and found out again that my pawpaw still couldnt come home. My mom called me and told me she wanted me to be able to spend my birthday at home and that she woudl stay with my grandpaw. My dad still ahsnt stayed once and well when he heard that my mom was staying he got pissed. My dad called and talked to me 7 times BUT NEVER once told me happy birthday he was to busy talking about him and grandpaw. So on my birthday I went home had me a mixed drink with my boyfriend and my best friend and well just relaxed. (Ill give details on my night another post)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Grandpaw still didnt get to come home so I was headed back tonight again after work but pawpaws sweet neice went down to visit with him and has decided to stay so I can go home and get another good nights rest. I am so mentally tired and mentally confused. I am so trying to do the right thing but so confused about my dads action. My mom is doing things to get at my dad and dad is doing things to hurt her. I have called my dad and apologized for my behavior cause two wrongs do not make a right and what I said to him was not right of me nobody how he was acting. His responce to me was ok and then he said he had to go. He still hasnt told me thank you for taking care of his dad. hasnt asked me how I am holding up, nor as he apologized to me.


Overall I am just not having a good week and really need all of my blogger friends to pray for me. Most kids go to their parents when they need advice on stuff but I cant go to my parents on this. I just feel confused on right and wrong. I feel like I am doing the right thing by pushing myself to take care of my grandpaw but it seems like my dad doesnt appreciate it and he is telling people that grandpaw doesnt need anybody with him. My dad is being cold and shortand acting like I have done something wrong.

Just please take a few seconds tonight to say a special prayer for my grandpaw if you dont mind and for my family cause I feel like this is putting a big wedge in between us again. Also I put in a job application  yesterday and praying that I hear good news from it.

So sorry I havent been around much in the blog world but this is why I havent been so hope every one understands.

Callie and Jess- Thank yall so much for wishing me Happy Birthday yesterday!! Meant more to me than you girls know!!!!

Callie- thanks for the award you are just a blessing in my life. I know I havent really meet you but I love you as a friend and pray you are having a good week. I been missing fitness pal:(


Thursday, March 1, 2012

The March Blues!!!

Yes this is the blues that you are thinking of
I am SAD!!!! and well let me explain why!!!!
Today is March 1 which mean my birthday is in
6 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now dont go jumping to conclusions
I am not sad at all about fixing to turn the
BIG 2-6. I just dont like my birthday!!!
In the past my birthday hasnt ever turned out to
be as fun as I always thought a normal birthday should be
Every year on my birthday it just always reminded me of how
I didnt have alot of friends. It was always me and one friend
and that was it to celebrate. Most of the time I would have to remind my
dad the day before or the day of my birthday.

Well last years birthday was HORRIBLE as in I cried all day long.
The boyfriend and me got in a huge fight. I think I even told him I didnt
like him adn wanted to break up. It was the birthday from hell no lie. Alot of other stuff was going on
My birthday went missing the day before didnt tell anyone where she was going and well
went and checked herself in a mental institute cause my sister told her she was crazy!!!
Oh yes my boyfriends sister was mad at me that day cause I had went behind her
back and asked around about her new boyfriend at the time. Just awful!!!!

Alot happened on my birthday and it was the day that started a war between me and
Jeremy's family. A big war that almost brought an end to me and Jeremy:( As I sit here
and think about my birthday while yes I am so thankful that everything worked out and
we are all so happy I just dont want to celebrate this year. I feel like I brought lasts year on myself.
I dont want to bore all with all the details but just say a prayer for me cause this time is just
not so fun to me.


NOW!!!!!!!!!!

On to something more positive I have decided to try the March photo a Day challenge on Instagram.
While I am sure my photos will be nothing spectacular I am pretty excited about doing it.
Here is a list of what I have to take a picture of everyday!!





So is anyone else doing the photo challenge?!? If so let me know I would love to follow you!!!!!


So guess what I have been doing GREAT on my healhty lifestyle change!!!
I have been working out and counting calories for a total of 8 days.
I feel great to. The counting calories is a lil harder than I thought. Lets just say
it has me wondering how many calories I ate a day before I cut out fast food!!!
Even though I am sure this isnt stuff you want to hear but I am loving my routine
I have been trying to eat ever 2-3 hours. I read that this helps keep your
metabolism up?!? I have been trying to work out everyday when I
get home. I have been mixing this upu just so I want get bored. I either go to the park
for a walk/jog or I put in a workout dvd and do it. Right now I am not pushing myself
very hard on my workouts just casue I dont want to burn myself out. I usually work out
for 30 minutes. I def hope to increase this number slowly.

I am still getting up early every morning which hard for me to say this but
I LOVE IT!!!!! Jeremy has been going in to work at 5:30 so he usually leaves the house
at 5:15-5:20. When he leaves I usually check my email, get on facebook, and have
a talk with God befoer I get out of the around 5:50. When I get up the first thing I do is make the
bed (yes I am OCD) and then I take Lizzie Mae outside to walk around. I still find it so hard to believe that I am enjoying getting out of bed before the sun but I am def soaking it in while it last. Usually around6:05 I come in and fix me come breakfast. I read that breakfast is the most important meal so I def make it important. I make something differnet every morning but it always contains a bunch of fruit. After breakfast I pour myself a cup of coffee and its off to get ready for work.

Before I leave the house I always pack my lunch and mix me a spark/orange jiuce drink for the drive to work. Spark is a good caffeine powder and gives you energy. In this process I gave up Mt Dew and any other
soft drink. I tried giving up Mt Dew a few times before but I would get killer headaches and would
finally give in and drink one. So far I have not had any headaches so thank the Lord for that. Usually around 9 in the morning I will eat me a banana or an orange for at this point it has been 3 hours since I had breakfast. Then I will eat lunch at 12. I read the point is to make sure your body is never hungry. So then I will have another snack at 3.

I usually get home around 5:30 and will immediately get in my workour attire. I do not sit down
cause I am scared if I sit down I will not work out. I will work out for 30 minutes then fix something for supper.
Most of the times I try to make sure supper is my lowest calorie meal of the day. After I eat I will then shower and get in my pjs ready to start the next day!!!  I am so hoping I stickto this cause I am feeling so confident and
so proud of myself!!!! It has been fun cause me and Jeremy have been working out together!!! Every morning we discuss what we are going to do that afternoon. Today the weather is perfect for a run at the park so that is what we have scheduled for today!!!

So this is what my week has consisted of just working out and work and well calorie counting!!!!
What have yall been doing this week?!?!