I am SLACKING!!!!

Yes this new year has started off crazy and I have fallen off the new years resolution wagon. I was doing so well then TAX SEASON happened and othere stuff happened. I havent been very good with the blog either. UGH I feel like I am out of the loop. I am so behind on keeping yall lovies up to date with my life. So this is a catch up post.

1. Lizzie Mae had her first photo shoot. Yes this mama had my best friend Linz (who is a photographer) take pictures of my pupper. I will remember to post picture tomorrow. They turned out so good considering Lizzie Mae didnt understand why Aunt Lala kept pointing a big black thing in her face. Promise for pictures tomorrow.
2. My dad had his gallbladder taken out yesterday. He has been sick for about a month now and the doctor here in Carthage finally figured out it was his gallbladder. So he went last week to a doctor in Jackson and well yesterday me and him spent the day at St Dominics. He is home in the bed today but said he already feels better so I am glad.
3. I have been doing good on eating healthier but not so good on exercise. I work non stop so when I get home I crash on the couch. BUT I promise today I am going home to workout.
4. I did some more decorating this weekend I swear new home is hard to get like you want it especially when you are starting from scratch and your decorating skills is very low. Thank God for pinterest.
5. This weather has my sinuses trying to mess up bad. Today it is 71 outside. Can we say spring fever and we havent even had a bad winter.
6. I am so excited about the Super Bowl but so sad cause after sunday football is over. I have already started saving for my MS State seaon tickets. Callie are you ready?? We must really meet this year and actually say hey. Anything more than a wave. Deal?!?
7. I am really in need of a girlfriend in the Kosy area. There is this girl that I want to get to know but is it creepy to just message her on facebook?? Jeremy and her hubby work together and work out 3 times a week together. I said something to him about talking to her hubby about us all getting together and well jeremy said we will see. I just sometimes wish Jeremy and I had a couple friend. Thoughts on this??
8. It is valentines day soon I am excited cause me and Jeremy live together so this Valentines Day is going to be special but I dont know what to get him. UGH what is everyone getting there boytoy??
9. I just ordered some new reading material. I ordered the Kris Jenner (Kardashian) autobiography and the Tim Tebow book. I also bought the Girl with the Dragon Tatoo. Has anyone read any of these books?? If so are they good, bad, stupid, whatever??
10. Today is only Tuesday and well quite frankley I am over this week. I hate feeling rushed and anxious and well after missing work yesterday I feel so behind.

Well I hope everyone has been doing good lately. I hope to catch up with all my blog reading soon. I doubt I get done today or tomorrow or gosh even this week but soon. I also hope yall are still doing good with yall new years resolution cause I think I have slacked enough for everybody. EEK!!!!

Be blessed!!
Nicole

Anxious, Confused, Hate Change. . .

Today is a day where I just need to vent. Not a day of angry just a day of writing (well typing) my thoughts down.

First off my body is in shock this week. I remember about 2 years ago when I could stay out partying til 3 in the morning and wake up at 7 and go to work. WOW is all I can say how did I make it cause now if I am not in the bed by 10 I cant function at work the next day. I know its just that my body has gotten use to this routine. Well my body is not liking working on Saturdays and it has been fighting with me this week. Today is the first morning where I got out of the bed feeling great and you want to know why?!? This girl was in the bed and asleep at 8:30.

I have also felt so disappointed in myself. I feel like I have lost weight. i can look in the mirror and see the change. BUT the scale tells me I have not lost anything. So I feel very anxious to get this weight off which makes me kinda stressed out. I will not fail at this though cause I have failed at losing weight and having the body I want to many times to count. I know I said I just want to get healthy but isnt getting healthy also part of wannting to look healthy. No?!?!

I have also felt so anxious on wanting to get decorating of the house done but do not know where to begin. I mean I look on pinterest but most of those looks are expensive and I have trouble coming off of money. I mean I still havent even bought curtains for our bedroom. Picture this 2 big 1980 blankets nailed to the windows. EEEK I swear we arent rednecks we just act like them on rare occasions.

I have had an ex friend of mine on my mind for a few weeks. I dont know why and dont know if I need to try to contact her. I am scared to contact her cause the reason we arent friends anymore is my fault and something I aint proud of but I cant get her off mind and dont know why. I mean if I were her I wouldnt want to hear from me either.

I have so much I want to do and it makes me feel so anxious and like I need to get it done NOW like RIGHT NOW. I dont like feeling like this and dont know how to not feel like this. I mean I am not the energizer bunny but damnit I sure try to be. I keep going and doing until I drive myself completely crazy. I have added so much to a list that I dont know where to begin and well frankly I am OVERWHELMED.

Does anybody else deal with these feelings?? How dod you get everything done that needs to be done??

My New Year update!

I am trying to still play catch up in the blog world. I feel so out of the loop :(  I dont have much to tell yall cause my life consists of late nights at the office and working 6 days a week so day number 7 is catch up at home day. I did want to let yall know how my new year goals are going. If you didnt read my post where I listed some things I wanted to work on in the new year then well its your luck day here they are again.

1. I want to be physical active more. Like running, walking, working out, swimming, Anything besides lifting a spoon or fork to my mouth.
2. I want to be better at planning. I am such a procrastinator about everything. I want to make meal plans for the week and grocery list and plan birthdays a month in advice instead of the week of.
3. I want to read more. I use to love reading and always had a book in my hand. I want to try to read one book a month surely I can do that.
4. I want to be more crafty. I look on pinterest and love all the DIY crafts but I am always to scared to try it all. I want to stop being scared and just do it. I might actually be good at.
5. I want to strenghten my relationship with God. Everyone needs this.
6. I want to get more into cooking and baking. I feel like I am always cooking the same thing. I want to venture out more and take risk with cooking.
7. I want to work on my self esteem. I always feel like people arent going to like me. I feel like I am not pretty enough or not skinny enough. I know I am not fat but I am very insecure with myself and my body


So there is the list and I have to say I am patting myself on the back cause I am doing real good with all of these goals. My first goal was to be more physical active and well while I havent been running outside I have been doing cardio in the house in front of the tv so I would def say I am diong good. Once this weather decided what it wants to do then I will def be outside enjoying the beautiful world.

Second on my list was to be a better planner. I have always said I work better under pressure. Well while this is true all I am doing is stressing myself out when this is truely not necessary. I bought a planner and well I have been using it very faithfully. I have wrote down everyones birthday and special occasion. While I still have a few weeks til Valentines Day I have already started planning what I want to do special for Jeremy. While I havent done any meal plans I have been making grocery lists which is a big deal to me cause I would try to memorize everything and then would wind up forgetting everything. I have been bringing my lunch to work with me everyday and even pack it and plan it the night before.

Third on my list was I wanted to read more. I have simply just gotten away from reading and I have missed reading. I started this goal the week after Christmas actually. I have finished 2 books and halfway through with another one. So I think I am taking this goal on pretty good. Here is the list of what I have read:

Fourth on my list I havent been able to really tackle but I have been to another painting class and painted a cross for my guest bedroom. I have also been decorating the house more so I consider that I have been trying to be crafty but havent tryed to make anything yet so I def do need to work on this.

Fifth was to strengthen my relationship with God and I have def been working on this. If it hadnt been for talking to God and having him by my side this week I think I would be a mental case. I def have not done this as well as I need to but Im def getting there and can def tell a difference in my life.

Number Six is a Zero. I am not going to lie I have not ventured out at all. I mean dont get me wrong I have been cooking but nothing new at all. So I havent done good at this goal at all. Well unless you call doing my tuna salad different then I have done one new recipe. hahahaha yeah I dont think that counts.

Number Seven wow is all I can say about it. I have def been trying to work on my self esteem but I catch myself alot downing myself or looking in the mirror and saying gosh I am so ugly. Yes I am that girl I can tell you how many rolls and flaws I have.

Overall I think I am def making progress and am loving 2012 so far. Now if I can just keep my sanity for 13 mmore weeks and 77 days. Yes I already know how many more days and weeks are left in tax season.
I feel bad for Jeremy cause I know I get tired and ill during tax season but I am really trying to do good and be nice.



The week where I cried and wish I lived in a bubble.

Hey ladies! Sorry for MIA this week but this lady isnt having a good week:(

Have you every had one of those weeks where you just wish you could hide from the world cause you swear the world is out to ruin you?? Well if not then damn it cause that is def how I feel this week. I know I have so much to be thankful for and so much that is good in my life but its likes all the bad is making it hard to see the good. I am trying to stay positive.

I just kinda wanted to give a lil recap on how I been doing with my new healthy lifestyle:) So I been on the green tea supplement pills and bitoin vitamins for about a week now and I am loving the energy I feel everyday. Maybe it is all in my mind but I swear I feel like the entergizer bunny everyday. I know I am losing weight which no I know I havent lost alot in the last week but I started changing my eating habits a few months ago. I am working out at least 5 days a week nothing major just a lil bit. I dont want to do alot at first cause I sure dont want to get burnt out and fail. Anyway I def feel like I am losing weight cause my clothes look and feel different on me. I told myself I wanted to do this to be healthier not about the number BUT know I want to buy a scale to see the number ugh!!! When I first weighed myself back in September or Ocotober I weighed 138. Ok I know thats not fat and trust me I never thought I was fat but I wasnt healthy at all. I mean if I cant control what I put in my body now I def am not going to when I am 60. Before I started I had a GUT like my stomach hung over my pants and it was embarassing to me cause I would look small everywhere but gained weight in my midsection and I hated it. Now my big gut is a small pooch. hahahaha I am cracking up that I have named my stomach from big gut to small pooch. Who is a dork?? Hi my name is Nicole. This whole new lifestyle hasnt been has hard as I thought it would be. I dont deprive myself from anything its just all a mind game. I just try to choose healthier and went from drinking mt dews all day long to only one mt dew and water the rest of the day. I feel great and now that I am seeing results I acourse want to keep going.

Anyway I got to get back to work I hope everyone is having a good week and stilldoing good on there new years goal!! Hope to catch up with all of yall soon!! I miss the blog world this week but tax season has taken over my life

My hard day. . . .

Hello my peeps! I am not having a good day. Its a day where I have cried for a good solid hour. More on that later though.

Last night I got home and I worked out again WHOOP WHOOP!!! ( everytime I say that or type it I always think of the movie Baby Mama) I dont even know if I should say I "work out" because I am not doing alot BUT I must be doing something right cause I still am sore. As in I have to grab either side of the toilet seat and ease myself down. I wish I could take a picture of this action but I am sure all of yall are know picturing this. Sorry for all the nightmares in advance :)

I also went yesterday and got me a few goodies!! I got me a  planner:) I had read last week where my fellow blogger Callie over at The Good Life has a planner and she keeps track of when she works out. Well I thought well now thats just a good idea. So I got a planner and am now keeping track of what I eat and what I do for exercise everday. I also got biotin and green tea supplements thanks to my KY honey Jess or as yall know her The Kentucky Priss.Thank you Callie for sharing the planner idea!! Thank you Jess for the workout plan and the pill suggestions, but most important thank you for not being a witch with a B you are so sweet.

do any of you have any suggestions on work out plans?? Vitamins you take?? or how to help this soreness??


Anyway after my "workout" I cooked me and the boyfriend some chicken alfredo (came out of a bag) and we settled in for the Bachelor. OMG some of these girls are already getting on my nerves. After getting caught up with the Bachelor I was in the bed at 8:45:) YESSS

So on to the reason my day is bad. This is hard for me to type and acourse I am not going into alot of details of what happened. I work alone. It is just me and my boss in my office. In my office is a lobby then another door that leads you to the back. Well most of the time when my boss isnt here I lock the door that takes me to the lobby just so that if someone comes in they have to stay in the lobby. This morning my boss left and I was at my desk and well hadnt thought about locking the door cause he hadnt been gone long. Well a much older man comes in and well comes on back. He informs me that he came to see me cause he saw my boss was gone. He then proceeds to wrap his arm around me. I get away from him cause at this point I am a lil freaked out cause I know this man but not that well I only see him once a year when he comes to see my boss. Then the man proceeds to get a big wad of cash out and start counting it. Acourse by this point I am shaking and feel very uncomfortbale. He then tells me well I am going to tip you. He has like alot of money in his hand. At this point another person comes in to bring me some papers. Which I have never been so thankful. Anyway the man leaves and he hadnt parked in front of the building. He parked away from my office.

I know my words might not describe why or how scared I was. I dont know this man so therefore he could have meant no harm what so ever but all I know is those ten minutes were the longest ever. As soon as he left I started bawling my eyes out and then called my girlfriend Lindsey. I guess maybe I shouldnt watch the news or read the news cause I am sure this is the reason this scared me.

Has anyone else ever had an experience like this?? If so how did it make you feel?

Let Me Tell You a Few Things!!!

Hello honey bunnies!!! I am struggling today!!! I feel like a grandmother that lost her walker. True Story!!!

Last night when I got home I decided it was the day that I needed to work out. It was perfect cause the boyfriend was at the gym so I was home alone. I grabbed the big fluffy rug out of the laundry room as my mat. Yes you read that right I used the laundry room room as my work out mat. The floors in the living room are wood ok and not very comfy!!!!

Anyway I worked out to Jillian Michaels 6 week Ab Dvd for 15 minutes. Hey dont judge me on my time trust me this girl is SORE!!! I think I am dieing. I wanted to do longer but I have learned in the past that when I push myself and make my self workout everyday and expect so much from myself that I usually get burnt out and quit. I dont want to quit this time so I am going to gradually work into this routine.

I stayed up til 11 last night OMG!!!! Ok I am sure to some of you this is a normal bedtime for you but this girl is a grandmaw. I am usually in the bed at 9 and asleep before 10. I thought I could handle one night of staying up late but FAIL!!! tonight I will be in bed at 8:) I was glad that Alabam won the game last night by the way. Its so funny how the LSU fans sure were talking all smack (excuse all the LSU fans on my facebook acct) all year long but after about ten minutes into the game the LSU fans disappeared. I got the cutest phone call last night to. My nephew called and said Hey Cole!!! ROLL TIDE!!! hahahahaha needless to say my sister and brother in law dont like him saying that cause they are die hard LSU fans. I thought it was funny. Now I got to teach Conner to say Hail State :)

I have a song on repeat today and omg I hate it when I am like this with a song but oh well. Has anyone heard its 5 o'clock by tpain. OMG this song is to addictive. If you havent heard it then go look it up now!!!

I am so excited to watch the Bachelor tonight!!! I know peeps it came on last night but thank you tv gods for DVR. So nobody text me or email me ruining the outcome lol

Today during lunch I must go get new windsheild wipers cause it has been raining all day and OMG my windsheild wipers dont work good. Also my hair is as huge as a beach whale today with all this rain. Curly Sur I am I am today!!

Well its off to work although I wish I could just text and chat with my girl today. Got to make that dough!!!

My weekend in words!!!

Why does Monday come at you full force?? Today has def made a 180 turn from how I felt when I woke up this morning but more on that later.

I have to say this past weekend was a good one. I def took full advantage of my last weekend off.  I know yall want to know what all I did so let me recap in one word LAZY!!!!!

Friday night- Me, Jeremy, and my girl Lindsey went to my sisters house for my sweet nephews bday party. He is just a sweetheart and very dramactic. He screamed and kissed every present that he opened cause he was so excited about all his gifts. He loved his smurfs birthday cake to. He had everybody laughing and even brought a few people to tears. He said the sweetest prayer before everyone cute into his cake. I acourse wish I had known he was going to do this cause I would have recorded it but here is basically how his prayer went. Please remember that he turned 4.

Dear God, Thank you so much for my birthday,

Thank you for my friends and family that came to

my birthday party.

Thank you for my presents and for my cake

Thank you for my mommy and daddy

Thank you so much for bringing my daddy home safe

Please dont make him leave me again.

Lets eat some cake

AMEN!!!

I teared up again just typing that. Let me explain something. My brother in law just started working offshore. He just got home from his first hitch. He is working on a rig out in Texas. Needless to say Conner doesnt like his dad being away and has been praying everynight that daddy doesnt leave him again. Alot of tears were shed when he prayed that prayer.

Anyway after the party, we headed back to the house. Lindsey and I sat up til like 2 in the morning just chatting about girl stuff. Saturday morning we were all up around 9 and ready for a fun day. Lindsey is a photographer and wanted to try to take some pictures of my Lizzie Mae. Whew that lil girl is spoiled and so wouldnt sit still long enough for nothing but Lindsey did manage to get some good ones. Around 10 we all including Jeremy settled in the living room and watched The Help. Wow I loved the movie. I had just recently finished the book so was nervous about the movie but they do a good job of follwing the book. After watching The Help, we then watched Hangover 1 & 2. hehehehe let me tell you we are a bunch of wild animals. Then we watched some football and ended the night with a lil karooke before Lindsey had to leave and go home:(

Sunday morning me and Jeremy did our weekly grocery shopping then watched the movie Straw Dogs. I didnt hate this movie but it def wasnt my favorite. Jeremy then settled in and watched football all day and well I laid in the bed with lizzie and watched lifetime all day. Again whew we are a wild bunch. I did manage to catch up on laundry. By sunday night me and Jeremy settled in and watched Life as we Know it. We had started watching this the other night on Starz and didnt get to finish it. So we decided to rewatch it. After the movie we settled in the bed and watch Kim & Kourtney take New York. UGH Kim is the modern day Cruella to me. Sorry if you dont disagree but she is really getting on my nerves.

This week I am hoping to start working out again. I have been doing so good with my healthier earting and have lost some weight the last 2 months but know I need to tone up. Plus I want to work on my leg and stomach muscles. I really want to jog and run but I stick at running in the summer. So I am gonna have to stick to cardio exercises that are inside. If anyone has any suggestions please email me or comment.

I hope everyone knows about the big game tonight. Yes I am skipping the bachelor to watch football!!! Thank you sweet baby Jesus for DVR!!!! I am not a big alabama or LSU fan but my sister is a die hard LSU fan so acourse I wouldnt be a good sister if I didnt go against her :) ROLL TIDE!!!! I am not sorry if I offend you for going for Alabama if you had to listen to my sister talk about LSU 24/7 like I do then you wouldnt blame me either.

I'm GROUNDED but Its still FRIDAY!!!!

What UP!!!! I am so thankful that today is Friday. I swear is it just me or is it easier to get up and going on Friday mornings?? I just wake up in a different mood on Fridays. This weekend is a very sepecial weekend to for so many reasons.  One is that this is prob my last weekend off. BOOOO yes I hate saying that but after this weekend I will be working on Saturdays and ugh it just stinks. Like I want to throw a big pity party and kick and stomp and scream and even cry. I am pathetic I know but I enoy my saturdays at home with my lil family.

Anyway another reason is because this lil guy turns 4!!!! I can not believe that Aunt Coles baby is turning 4 it seems just like yesterday that I was rocking him to sleep. Now this kid never sleeps like he is jacked up on Mt Dew all the time. He is having his bday party tonight and then tomorrow he is going hunting with his mom and dad.

I am also so excited cause this sweet dear and only girl friend is staying with me and Jeremy tonight!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!! I am supa excited. So what kinda wild stuff are we going to be doing you might be asking??? Ok so my last post I had a picture of the fire I had been relaxing by all week. Well there will be a lil of that, some wine, some eating, alot of laughing, maybe a hair session, nail session. Oh hell you get the point. Also I am sure we will have a card game rematch cause Jeremy is still upset that Lindsey beat him last time.

Ok so now to the serious stuff!!! As you read in the title I am grounded. Yes you read it right I grounded myself. Why you ask?? Well here is the story. . .

Yesterday I left work with my mind made up that I was going home to work out. Dang it you got to get this muscle flab and flub under control. If you dont before long you are going to look like a tan 80 year old woman. BUT I knew I had to run in walmart first to get my precious nephew something for his bday. I mean hello I cant show up empty handed. Well I made a huge mistake!!!! I walked by the finger nail polish isle. DAMNIT!!!! Ok so here in MS we are always months behind everybody else. Ok wait its prob just the Carthage and Kosciusko walmart. But anywho they had just put out the Kardashian Kolor line by Nicole. EEK!!!! So I had to have 2 different colors cause umm once they run out our walmart want get it anymore cause it will be out of style right?! Thanks I knew you would agree. Well I was so excited when I got home that I had to repaint my nails cause my nephew would be so disappointed if my nails didnt look freshly done right?!?

So out the door working out when and welcome in doing my nails. Oh dont worry I got pictures!!!!

I swear my fingers look like monkey fingers dont they?? Gosh they so long and skinny.

I swear I think the new nail polish even made my face look different this morning.

So yeah I grounded myself cause my mind control stinks. I must do better next week so everyday next week yall stay on me about working out!!!!! Hope yall have a great weekend!!! 

New Year, New Me, And New Way of thinking!!!!!!!

Hello is is Friday yet?? Oh my goodnes I know this is a short work week but geeze it feels like this has been the longest week ever. Dont worry though I have still made time to stalk my favorite blogs. Thank you sweet baby Jesus for the iphone.

So I know yall all are about to scream wanting to know what I have been up to??? They usually say that a picture is worth a thousand words so here is what I have been doing every night for the most part

Yes that is a REAL fire!!! No gas logs but real wood. Ok I am not saying there is nothing wrong with gas logs but a real wood fire just smells so good. Awe I love our home.

This has been the first week of tax season so I go non-stop from 8-5 and when I get home I CRASH!!!!

I have been doing alot of thinking here lately about life. This new year is def the year for me and I know it. I am going to the best that I can be and be positive and smiling the whole time. Is it going to be hard umm yeah but its also going to be fun!!! Life is what you make it and I want to make my life fun. I dont want to look back on life with I'm 50 and have regrets. I want to meet new people, make new friends, and quit whining about my family.

I have def started the new year off right. I read one book last weekend and already started another one. I have been eating healthier and quit the soft drinks. Now I got to get back to working out. I just wish working out in your mind gave good results. I am good at working out during the spring and summer but when its 32 outside no thank you I will stay inside by the fire.

I feel like I am all over the place and I know I am but I am just so excited about this year. I am so blessed and I often dwell on the bad in my life and forget about all the good. Yes I want more girl friends in my life but I am thankful for the ones I do have. Yes I want to skinner and more fit but Im thankful that I am healthy. Yes I hate my job but I am thankful that I have a job that supports me. I have got to quit letting all the negative in my life control me and this is the year that it is going to stop.

I have really enjoyed reading about all of yall Christmas and New years fun, also reading about your new year plans. Lets all encourage each other to stick to our plans and make this year the best ever!!!

I'M STAYING!!!!

Thats right Im not going to delete the blog. BUT I want be able to read, comment, or write a post alot cause yep its the worst part of the year

TAX SEASON!!!!!!!

I will now be working 6 days a week boooooo!!!!

Anyway even though I have only really made one friend in the blog world!!! I am thankful for that one friend. So that is why I have decided to not delete my blog Cause I enjoy stalking my friend Callie way to much!!! and even texting her occasionally:) which we havent done lately:(

So this weekend was the best ever. I have really enjoyed the last two holiday weekends at home with Jeremy. We have been super lazy and just hung out and spent time together. YES that is really all we did except ooh we did work out in the yard one day and I got to try out my new leaf blower. I know we are such boring people but I love it.

I hate I dont have much time to chat with yall today. Im trying to get work mode back into gear and trying to get my list of things I want to do in 2012 started to so hopefully tomorrow I will have something exciting and fun to talk about.