Is my blog fun and filled with pictures? No and I am sorry that my camera cord doesnt cooperate with me BUT I been reading some blogs where its alot of peoples pet peeves about blogs. It saddens me that my blog might not be a hit with people just cause I dont have alot of colors and pictures. I have had a hard couple of months and well it continues to keep growing and my blog has become my escape. I love opening up blogger and reading what others did last night or what they watched on tv I feel like I connect everyone. I most of the time dont remember blog names but I remember you girls names. To me you are all different and very unique and I love it. I am ME!!! I am Nicole Griffin and I am proud of it. If you cant read my words and connect with me then your not going to connect with pictures I post either.
Sorry for seeming like a debbie downer but I hate the way I world is today and it bothers me on a day to day basic. I know I worry to much :( Why does it have to be about pleasing everyone else?? or about partying and see who getsdrunk first??? Yes I do drink but I have grown out of the bar seen alot and enjoy just grilling out and drinking on the back porch or over a card game. Before hate mail starts I am not downing anybody who believes in getting drunk every night and going to bars all the time. I just dont understand why people cant quit pretending and just be yourself.
I have a family that I am always trying to please I watch what I say around them and what I do cause I dont want them mad at me. Is that right of me?? ummm NO!!!! I am me I shouldnt be having to please people or tiptoe around them. For years I have kept my opinion to myself cause I dont want anyone mad at me.Well guess what I got a text last night from a family member saying that she had left her hubby cause he had started drinking and she couldnt deal with it. It really strunk a nerve with me. Yes this man is a recovering alcoholic but this woman is not just perfect either. This man has stood by her through alot and loves her so much. Now that he is going through a hard time this woman is so quick to jump ship WHAT!!! Well the old me would never dare give my opinion but this girl did and well the family memeber is no longer speaking to me doesnt understand why I am not on her side. Ummm giving my opinion doesnt mean I do not support you but seemly means wake up. It is so sad cause this is how the world works today. You must always keep quiet cause poeple say they want the truth but in reality the only truth they want is what they believe in.
I want to be able to be me in my life. I am tired of living in shadows of the world. This is my blog and if nobody ever reads it that is ok with me cause I never started a blog foranybody else I started it for me. If you ask my opinion about something I will no longer be scared of making you mad cause you shouldnt have asked my opinion. I want to live lifewithout being scared of who I am going to make mad today. I want to be able to go outside and dig in my flowerbed and have dirt from head to toe if I want to. I want to run and look ridiculous doing in, I want to roll in the grass and so what if ants bite my legs, I want to go in walmart with no makeup on and in my pjs ( ok thats stretching it). I just want to be me all the time everyday. I dont care if the lady next to me doesnt like my hair style or if she hates the green fingernail polish on my nails. I have this haristyle and green fingernail polish because it makes me happy. You might not love me or the person down the road might not love me but I love me and God loves me. I just dont understand the world and why people judge so many people all the time. This past Saturday at the State vs. South Carolina game I got alot of bad looks cause of what I wore. Excuse me that I am not one of those tight dresses and high heel girls. I wish I could be a high heel girl but ummm God didnt make me like that I love my cowgirl boots I love feeling comfortable. So I wore a state jersey a blue jean skirt and my cow girl boots. I love football and I come to watch it I dont come looking like trailer trash but I dont wear heels. If this girl wore heels up there I would prob get arrested cause campus police would think I was drunk cause I would fall ever ten second. Anyway what is wrong with what I wear I mean yes I understand some people shouldnt live the house cause WOW I think they jut roll out of bed but I def wouldnt ever put myself in that category.
Sorry for all my ranting and raving just whew it drives me cray cray how people are today. I mean I am sorry I am not rich but I am happy. As I told a friend I went from being married having alot of money in the bank and driving a brand new eclipse to being divorced being overdraft at the bank and driving a 98 grand pri. If my ex hubby came to me begging to take me back well I would def have to restrain myself from kicking him in the balls. My point is being rich and having alot of money doesnt mean anything if you arent happy with yourself. Now I struggle to get by each month but I am so happy with the guy I am with he loves me and I love him and to us that is all that matters
Do you ever feel like this??? If so how do you deal with it??
Sorry for seeming like a debbie downer but I hate the way I world is today and it bothers me on a day to day basic. I know I worry to much :( Why does it have to be about pleasing everyone else?? or about partying and see who getsdrunk first??? Yes I do drink but I have grown out of the bar seen alot and enjoy just grilling out and drinking on the back porch or over a card game. Before hate mail starts I am not downing anybody who believes in getting drunk every night and going to bars all the time. I just dont understand why people cant quit pretending and just be yourself.
I have a family that I am always trying to please I watch what I say around them and what I do cause I dont want them mad at me. Is that right of me?? ummm NO!!!! I am me I shouldnt be having to please people or tiptoe around them. For years I have kept my opinion to myself cause I dont want anyone mad at me.Well guess what I got a text last night from a family member saying that she had left her hubby cause he had started drinking and she couldnt deal with it. It really strunk a nerve with me. Yes this man is a recovering alcoholic but this woman is not just perfect either. This man has stood by her through alot and loves her so much. Now that he is going through a hard time this woman is so quick to jump ship WHAT!!! Well the old me would never dare give my opinion but this girl did and well the family memeber is no longer speaking to me doesnt understand why I am not on her side. Ummm giving my opinion doesnt mean I do not support you but seemly means wake up. It is so sad cause this is how the world works today. You must always keep quiet cause poeple say they want the truth but in reality the only truth they want is what they believe in.
I want to be able to be me in my life. I am tired of living in shadows of the world. This is my blog and if nobody ever reads it that is ok with me cause I never started a blog foranybody else I started it for me. If you ask my opinion about something I will no longer be scared of making you mad cause you shouldnt have asked my opinion. I want to live lifewithout being scared of who I am going to make mad today. I want to be able to go outside and dig in my flowerbed and have dirt from head to toe if I want to. I want to run and look ridiculous doing in, I want to roll in the grass and so what if ants bite my legs, I want to go in walmart with no makeup on and in my pjs ( ok thats stretching it). I just want to be me all the time everyday. I dont care if the lady next to me doesnt like my hair style or if she hates the green fingernail polish on my nails. I have this haristyle and green fingernail polish because it makes me happy. You might not love me or the person down the road might not love me but I love me and God loves me. I just dont understand the world and why people judge so many people all the time. This past Saturday at the State vs. South Carolina game I got alot of bad looks cause of what I wore. Excuse me that I am not one of those tight dresses and high heel girls. I wish I could be a high heel girl but ummm God didnt make me like that I love my cowgirl boots I love feeling comfortable. So I wore a state jersey a blue jean skirt and my cow girl boots. I love football and I come to watch it I dont come looking like trailer trash but I dont wear heels. If this girl wore heels up there I would prob get arrested cause campus police would think I was drunk cause I would fall ever ten second. Anyway what is wrong with what I wear I mean yes I understand some people shouldnt live the house cause WOW I think they jut roll out of bed but I def wouldnt ever put myself in that category.
Sorry for all my ranting and raving just whew it drives me cray cray how people are today. I mean I am sorry I am not rich but I am happy. As I told a friend I went from being married having alot of money in the bank and driving a brand new eclipse to being divorced being overdraft at the bank and driving a 98 grand pri. If my ex hubby came to me begging to take me back well I would def have to restrain myself from kicking him in the balls. My point is being rich and having alot of money doesnt mean anything if you arent happy with yourself. Now I struggle to get by each month but I am so happy with the guy I am with he loves me and I love him and to us that is all that matters
Do you ever feel like this??? If so how do you deal with it??
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